July 10th, 2005

Time: 04:09 pm

Woohoooo!! My internet connection is finally hooked up!! Oh, and I moved into an apartment. More to come.

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May 12th, 2005

Time: 01:04 pm Current Mood: satisfied

I am a college graduate today.

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May 5th, 2005

Current Music: Mr. Bungle - The Holy Filament Time: 10:39 am

I don't know what to do with myself.  Perhaps more organizing? I finally picked out my grad dress

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April 29th, 2005

Subject: Well... Time: 02:57 pm

I've made it out of students teaching alive. Just barely. Actually, I should bite my tounge because ,y last day is actually Monday. SO this is a bit premature but...YAYAAYAYAYAYA!!!!!! I have time to sit down and read a book again!!!! Or poish my nails, layout by the pool, drink a glass of wine in the jacuzzi, or give myself a facial, or watch a whole movie or two! Well for a few weeks anyway. I landed a position with one of my favorite districts, however, I don't know what grade level I'll be teaching yet. I told the guy I wanted second and he said there shouldn't be a problem with me getting whatever grade level I wanted. I'll be making decent money for a teacher and they will pay for my schooling. ANd now it turns out that my best friend from high school got a job offer there too. My birthday is May 2 (as well as my last day of student teaching), I get my teacher's certification on May 3rd, I graduate on the 13th, and my parents are throwing a hige party for me on the 14th (marachi's and dj included.) Busy, busy, month.

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February 24th, 2005

Time: 03:32 pm Current Mood: nostalgic

I remember when... -I was in middle school and wore cabby hats and suspenders. Kids didn't understand my sense of fashion then, but still appreciated it. -I considered my older brother one of my best friends. -dancing was the most important thing to me. -I thought I'd grow up to be a choreographer. -I use to teach my younger sister (during summer vacation) everything I had learned in school, so that she would be way ahead of all the other kids in her class. -I felt so proud when she learned multiplication and divison before going into 2nd grade. -when my baby brother was born, and thinking that he was the most adorable person I'd ever seen. (still can't believe he is now a freshman in high school) -I use to sleep with my lights off. (I don't remember why I started sleeping with them on) -I use to ditch high school just to stay home and read a good book. -I made the varsity pom line and not thinking that it was anything special. Now I regret not having as much fun as I should have. -I use to hate tomatoes. -my nana Gloria and tata Carlos use to take us to get Thrifty ice cream. -my tata "Peelo" use to take Annette and I to get Baskin Robins ice cream. -my nephew and niece were born and how my eyes teared up when I first saw them. -I rememeber my sixteenth birthday like it was yesterday. -I thought I'd never never want to get married. -I remember the moment he changed my mind.

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February 18th, 2005

Current Music: Tori Amos - "Jackie's Strength" Subject: Hooray for 3 Day Weekends! Time: 02:33 pm Current Mood: tired

LAtely my life has been stressful and I am constantly wishing that I had quit my part-time job at the bank and had not decided to become a teacher. But then holidays come around... and I know that both the school and the bank are always gauranteed to have these days off and I am once again loving life. I am even thinking about keeping my part-time job at the bank even after I get hired as a teacher. I know I could use the extra money (student loans, moving out expenses, new car) but I don't know how burnt out I will be. I assume I can't be as burnt out as I already am with my internship, my part-time job, and school. We'll see. Another reason why I am seriously thinking about staying with the bank is because I was hired as hourly...so I can work as little or as much as I want. Well...I found out from my manager that they are doing away with hourly with the new people coming in and that they have to work at least 20 hours a week. I am so lucky to have gotten hired before this because I am only working 18 hrs a week for them. However, it's a bummer I won't get paid for holidays. ANyway..since they have to honor the status I was hired as I can stay with them and still work less than 20 hrs when I need to (during the school year) and up to 40 during my summer vacations and breaks. I don't know what to do! I want the extra money and the opportunity to have a job when school is out but I also want my vacation time. I had a good day with my class today. Lots of testing in the morning and lots of free time in the afternoon. I hate that I have to go to work at 4:30. The bank is ridiculously busy all weekend long and I finally have a Saturday off again. I haven't had a day off for two weeks now AND I am working 11-12 hour days during the week. I wish I didn't have all this stress. Last night Justin snapped at me and I felt my eyes start to water which needs to never happen again. I usually consider myself a tough person and not a little bitch that cries when something doesn't go right. I found out we are going to Vegas for my Spring break. You'd think I'd be tired of going there by now. But no. It's fun, only four hours away, and reasonably priced. Next year, when I have a decent income, we'll go somewhere new for Spring break. Promise. Tori's new album is coming out soon. I listened to some of it when it first leaked out and it sounded like shit. But that's what I first thought about Scarlet's Walk and now I love it. I just can't believe that one of the songs on the new cd is titled "Hootchie Woman." That's embarrassing.

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February 15th, 2005

Subject: My Valentine. Time: 03:36 pm

He cooked the most delicious dinner last night (penne pasta with chicken in a red cream sauce.) I had had a long day. My internship, where 25 kids were cracked-out on sugar, went well but it seemed like the day would never end. After my internship I had to go to work until 7:45 so I didn't get to his house until 8:00. He had dinner made, the table set (a bouquet of lilys for me as the centerpiece,) candles lit, and a glass of sangria (with cut up fresh fruit in it) already poured in a whine glass for me. I was really surprised by the candlelight because we usually aren't into being romantic like that. However I did kill the mood by talking Everything was so nice and relaxing. I bought a mango-raspberry cake with whipped cream frosting for dessert. Thanks love, it was a good night.

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February 12th, 2005

Subject: Crash Time: 02:45 pm

Will I ever stop running my car into things? The answer is no. I am too much of a tard to know that it might be a good idea to use my breaks once in a while. I never really mess up the other person's car. Just mine. So I left my name and number but I doubt they'll call because I only left a tiny amount of white paint on their car. Uhg. SO annoying. ANd I just paid off my car the other day....

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February 8th, 2005

Current Music: Portishead - "Roads" Time: 02:50 pm Current Mood: determined

Dear Journal, I am sick. Being a teacher, I've found out, isn't all that it's cracked up to be. After almost a month of teaching I feel stressed, tired, frustrated, and now sick. There are good moments, plently even, but I feel my mentor isn't patience enough with me. I'll get over it. I always do. I'm just having one of those "ohmygod.thisistherestofmylife." meltdowns. I've been a bad girl and taken my stress out on my darling Justin. I really need to stop that. I owe him big. This weekend we took a trip to Tucson to see my sister's softball tournament. I hadn't talked to her since she left back to school form winter break. I miss her. I was sick the whole trip and just wanted to be indoors. Justin and I drove up there with my aunt and uncle and they were ready to party but I was a bum and slept any chance I got. We visited my tia and tio who live there and I almost forgot how funny my family can be. Which made me miss my nana and tata whom I haven't seen in the longest time. Scratch that. I did see them a couple of weeks ago when they were at my house visiting...but I only saw them on my way out the door ...heading to work. They had brought menudo too. :( My grandparents have got to be the funniest people I know. Let's see if I can catch up with things.

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January 26th, 2005

Time: 11:21 am

I think I've stressed to the point where I've made myself feel sick. My stomach was in knots all night and early morning so I called in. No internship for me today. Which means I finally have time to catch up a little with lesson plans. I think I shall call into work as well. One song that should always be listened to with the volume up high is Radiohead's "Street Spirit." Don't you forget it.

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January 13th, 2005

Subject: <3 Time: 11:56 am

From Point A... To ( Point B )

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January 6th, 2005

Time: 09:20 am

My sister's 21st came and went. I took her out to Jillian's where our friends all gathered. It was SO much fun. When I closed out my tab at the end of the night ( I was buying for Annette and myself) the bartender only charged us $10. 10 fucking dollars for a million drinks! It was awesome. For Justin's birthday/Christmas Eve we went to visit both of our families. I brought the tamales (which I help make especially for his family every year now) and ate as much meudo as my stomach could take at my tia's house. Christmas Day was so low key this year it was creepy. Most of my tia's and tio's were out of town and I didn't see my nana and tata on my dad's side because they moved up north to Pinewood. So we sat around all day and ate more tamales. The Monday after Christmas we went to Vegas. I love walking around over there. We saw Les Folis Bergere at the Tropicana which was so cute. My new goal in life is to see all of the shows in Vegas. I am now obsessed with showgirls. We also went to the Improv where my sister and her boyfriend-type laughed their asses off while I sat bored drinking my Malibu bay breeze. I only like watching comics if I am already familiar with them. We went to my recently married friend's house for New Years Eve. It's this huge two story with and enormous backyard. Envy is my sin. But I kept telling myself, "someday." Justin and I left before midnight and fell asleep right after we watched the ball drop on tv. Justin bought a bearded dragon and named him Kilgore Trout. He is adorable. It feels like such a chore to update this journal now (I can tell in my writing.)

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December 13th, 2004

Current Music: "Spotlight on Christmas"-Rufus Wainwright Subject: !!!!!!!! Time: 09:12 pm Current Mood: ecstatic

I PASSED THE AEPA TEST! I CAN BE CERTIFIED NOW!!!!!!! I CAN BREATHE NORMALLY NOW!!! Watch out kiddies. Here I come.

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December 12th, 2004

Current Music: River-Joni Mitchell Subject: What Happens When I Go Shopping for Others.... Time: 02:02 pm Current Mood: lazy

American Eagle Love <3 Went to see Vehemence play on Firday night and had the best time. Got a lil' tipsy and lucky! Wish I would have brought my camera in but I followed the "no cameras allowed" rule like a little bitch. When I got inside everyone had a camera. Oh well, it's not like I won't see Vehemence again. Finished Tracks and am now onto Middlesex. Quotes to come.

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December 10th, 2004

Subject: I'm SO Gay. Time: 12:10 pm

Yes. I sure did buy this.

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December 5th, 2004

Time: 05:02 pm

Friday: Saw Closer with Justy, Amber, and Jose. Strange but intersting movie. However, there was a point, sometime in the middle, where it verged on annoying. Natalie Portman is the cutest gal I've seen. Saturday: Justin's company holiday party. Excellent food. Horrible drive over there (it was in Scottsdale). Open bar and drunken speeches from the big boss. I guess we are now goingto Vegas the week after Christmas. Hopefully I can get if off with it being such short notice.

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December 3rd, 2004

Current Music: Pedro The Lion-"I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day" Subject: Christmas Music Makes Me Happy. Time: 05:15 pm Current Mood: pleased

I listen to (and sing along at the top of my lungs) with the Brenda Lee Christmas CD. I listen to the traditional and rock holiday stations on Launch.com. I listen to the Maybe This Christmas CD's on http://www.maybethisxmas.com/home.html. Then I go to work and put on the Christmas station as well. Can't get enough. I will listen to Christmas music all year long. Today was my last day at my internship in the kindergarten classroom. I really learned a lot and have so much more respect for early childhood educators. It's a tough job, and my mentor did it well. I still don't think I would ever want to teach below 2nd. Next Wednesday is my last class of the semester and we, along with our professor (who is one of the coolest ladies I've ever met), are going out that night for drinks at a bar next to the university. It still amazes me that this is my last year of school. Although I could have worked harder and done a better job at some things, I am still very proud of myself for finishing college (and with honors to boot!) I talk as if I'm graduating already. But this is the last semester of classes. Next semester I get to work for free! Student teaching will be hard but I'm confident I'll adjust and kick ass all over the place. <---psyching myself up. Had a good Thanksgiving. Didn't eat as much as I thought I would, but there's always next year to make up for it. I haven't even begun to Christmas shop. I'm broke...but I'll pull something off. It's been such a busy month. I still have a few things to finish up for a couple of classes. I'm glad everything is winding down. I can't wait to have more time to read the books I want to read. I can't wait.

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November 23rd, 2004

Time: 02:51 pm

Justin bought me an awesome digital camera. It was suppose to be a surprise but I always get him to tell me. I'm getting sick. I blame the AEAP test I had to take a couple of weeks ago. My stress level sky-rocketed that weekend and ever since then I've felt sick. That didn't stop me from going out this weekend though. Had a good time with Amber and all the rest. We danced and drank...and Justin showed up! He hates clubs but he always offers to pick me up at the end of the night. He went out for drinks with a friend and they met us later on. Good times. Sunday I had to work and afterwards Just and I went out to eat and cuddled up and watched Elf. My brother and his wife bought a Bug and I'm so jealous. I hope my parents are getting me one as my graduation present. I've decided to work while student teaching which is going to kill me (12 hr. work days) but it'll all be worth it in the end as Bank of America offers tuition reimbersement. Annette comes home tonight for the holidays. I miss her when she's away. I still have to go to class tonight, although I am thinking about ditching it. We'll see how it goes.

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November 16th, 2004

Current Music: The Beta Band- "Wonderful" Subject: i wish i wish i wish... Time: 01:23 pm Current Mood: frustrated

I just want to crawl under my blankets and stay there until this school year is over. Happy hibernating!

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November 11th, 2004

Current Music: Elliott Smith - "Little One" Subject: "Sights and Sounds..". Time: 11:18 am Current Mood: listless

Justin's cd finally released! Hurrah! Too bad they aren't together anymore to celebrate this occasion. This year is whipping by. I find myself saying, "Holy shit! Thanksgiving is a couple of weeks away!" like every two seconds. Is this what happens when you get older? You work your ass off and never think to slow down to enjoy the things and people around you. I barely see my family, even though I live in the same house with them and I rarely see my extended family anymore. barely and rarely. hm. This weekend I take the AEAP test which allows me to get my teacher certification if I pass. I can take it again if I dn't pass but at 200 bux a pop I best pass it the first time. The test is broken up into two parts, professional knowledge and content knowledge. Which means I better remember everything I have learned from kindergaten to 8th grade. The professional knowledge shouldn't be too bad. The study guide that I bought doesn't seem to help out as much as I'd hoped it would. I should be more freaked out about taking this test...but I'm not.

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